I haven’t had much to write about since our exciting 12 week ultrasound, but I suppose I’m due for an update 🙂
As soon as I hit my second trimester, I started feeling better immediately. The nausea hasn’t subsided completely, and seems to show up in rare but short and intense bouts of violent vomiting. I had one of these episodes on on the day before Christmas Eve, and ended up pissing my pants in the process (what fun!). I’m starting to amp up my Kegels (I do about 5-7min daily), but I have a feeling all this progesterone is just loosening everything and that maybe partial incontinence is just a part of this pregnancy (gah!). I also had intense nausea after Christmas Eve dinner just as Santa was coming to deliver presents (no vomiting this time), but luckily my mother-in-law, who’s a doctor, gave me some acupressure treatment over in a corner, and I was eventually able to join in the present opening madness.
My belly is also growing. I’ve graduated from just kind of feeling fat to feeling and actually looking pregnant. Of course my belly isn’t that big yet, but it’s definitely a belly. And it feels funny to hug people. Because I was feeling so sick throughout my entire first trimester I was barely able to train at the gym, and was just teaching the bare minimum of my classes. I was also kind of forced to just eat what I could keep down, which wasn’t always necessarily the healthiest choices. So… I’ve gained not so much weight, but body fat. (And yes I know it’s supposed to happen…)
As a short backstory, I was depressed some years back and the combination of that and the medication made me gain a bunch of weight. In the past year and a half preceding our TTC project, I was able to lose around 15kg (just over 30lbs) while gaining muscle mass. I was in quite muscular, buff shape last spring…and felt amazing about my body. Then when getting pregnant got more difficult, it was obviously something we had to focus on, and I just didn’t have the mental capacity or energy to focus on my body anymore. With all the injectable hormones to boot, I started gaining body fat last march-april…and I was just getting back to my “normal” self after our summer break, when we started the IVF process… and the rest is history. Now I know gaining weight and body fat is a part of the pregnancy, and I’m trying very hard to find peace with it. But the combination of not being to exercise or eat properly for a personal trainer… it’s tough! Anyone else having some trouble with accepting your changing body…? Needless to say, I’m excited to FINALLY get back to the gym this week.
Anyway, I AM enjoying my bump. I’m elated that most of the nausea is gone. I’m super excited about listening to our baby with the Doppler, because NOW, you can clearly hear the different chambers of the heart! It’s no longer just an even thumping, but a distinct: Ka-THUMP, Ka-THUMP, Ka-THUMP… AND the sound is so loud now that our baby is getting bigger. Baby is also quite active–once you locate the heartbeat, you have to keep moving the sensor because baby does NOT want to stay still 🙂 And I’m convinced I’ve felt the baby move a few times. Like a faint little tickle in my belly 🙂
And as a treat, a belly picture!